Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
Today went baby house.
I bought beancurd for baby and baby's mother.
Hee. Baby look cute today.
Hmmm.. I miss my silly baby.
Yeah tomorrow baby is joining me for lunch.
Happiness!!!
Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow!!!
We will be going town for shopping!
Weeeee!!!
Baby... Sorry yesterday I was a bit to harsh.
I don't mean it.
Sorry sorry.
I will love you forever okay?
Promise?
You are my forever baby!!!
Iloveyou
let your heart out.
Today baby met me at my house downstair.
Hee.
Baby and i went KCC again!
LOL.
Hmm.. But this we went without Hui Zhen and Ben.
Hee.
We had duck meat rice for our dinner.
After strolling a few round at bedok central, we decided to walk to my house.
So from bedok central we walked to my house.
It's was so sweet.
Baby and me were at the void deck chatting.
And we also walked around.
And suddenly I saw this two familiar faces.
MY PARENTS!!!!
But to my surprise, they acted as if they did not saw me.
LOL.
That's good.
Yeah. This Friday!!!!
Hee.
This friday can go shopping with baby le.
Baby, don't forget our steamboat k??
I miss that silly baby of mine.
Nothing else explains how i feel.
It's as simple as the four letter words, L.O.V.E
To me L.O.V.E stands for,
L = Loyal
O= One and only
V= Veracious
E= Eternity
I simply love everything about you*
Iloveyou
let your heart out.
Today met baby at bedok inter.
I feel so happy today.
Seeing Baby really brightens up my day =))
I miss that silly baby of mine.
We went kcc again!!!
Hee.
I saw ben standing outside our kcc room!!!
Hee.
We decided to join our room.
Saw Hui zhen too!!!
Baby and ben sang Jay songs together.
It's was nice.
Baby now has another new singing khakis.
While Hui zhen and me sang S.H.E songs.
I enjoyed myself today.
After our kcc-ing sessions we headed to bedok central.
Soon Ben and Hui Zhen headed home while Baby and Me went for our dinner at LJS.
After our late dinner we went strolling at Bedok central and soon headed to void deck.
We chatted at the void deck.
Hee.
I miss that silly baby.
Sighs.
I wanna hug that silly baby.
I miss her smile,
her laughter,
her scent
and everything.
Baby, I'm not going to give up just because of obstacles.
Don't worry.
No matter what we will be strong right?
Remember our undying love.
Sorry for my harsh actions and words today.
Baby, I simply love everything about you.
I'm all about you.
Iloveyou.
let your heart out.
I hate you to the core.
Whatever you say please mean it.
I can't believe that you are so heartless.
I'm tired of the quarrelling.
I don't wanna care abt it anymore.
I have good intention.
I want you to go visit grandpa cos of his cancer.
Yet, I got scolded by you.
Sighs.
It's your own father.
Please show some respect.
I so totally disappointed by you.
You are asking me not to called you mother anymore and I think that's fine with me.
I'm tired of my life.. Totally tired.
let your heart out.
Today went out with my primary school friends.
We went town for shopping.
Had wan ton mee for lunch.
We chatted quite alot.
Mostly is about our love life.
After walking a few round at town, We decide to head to simei instead.
So we waited for Shyet Teng Bf.
And soon we headed to foodcourt for our dinner.
Eileen came soon.
We chatted quite alot.
(Picture taken in the train)
I hope eilleen will be alright.
I really had fun today.
Ya, they also mentioned that baby treats me very good.
Baby ar, don't worry okay?
I love you for what you are now.
I'm missing you loads now.
Huggs.
let your heart out.
It don t matter if you re black
white or yellow, if you re brown or red
let s get down to that
love is color-blind
Verse 1:I remember whrenI was a child and couldn t understand
people having fundiscriminating all the different ones
mama just used to saywhen you grow up you ll maybe find a wayto make these people see
that everything I do comes back to me
Bridge:You gotta live your livewe re all the same, no one s to blame
they gotta live their lives
just play the game and let love reign
Chorous:It don t matter if you re blackwhite or yellow,
if your brown or redlet s get down to that
love is color-blindyou re my brother, you re my friend
all that matters in the very endis to understandlove is color-blind
I remeber as a young boy
I watched my neighbourhood go up in flame
I saw the whole thang thru tears of painand a situation s rackin my brainI wish I could fly away and never come back again
we need some lvoe y all
we need some real deal help from above y allI mean the kids watchin and I just can t see it stoppin , I don t understand
I mean we all bleed the same blood, man!
You gotta live your life
better than our fathers did
let s make some love, baby, have some kids
they gotta live their lives
and I don t care what color they are, or u are, or we are
it s all love, baby!
You have been my mother
you could have been my brother
what if you were my sister
if you were my father?
you could have been my fella
you could habe been my teacher
what if you were my friend?
would be so nice to meet ya
take it out to the world
tell every boy and every little girl
be proud of yourself
cause you re as good as anybody else
put away your prejudice
open your mind, don t need a stick to this
let your heart out.
Fri
Met my silly baby at bedok.
Had fish and chips for lunch.
After our lunch went baby's house and take a nap.
We slept for almost two hours.
hee.
We wanted to watch VCD so we went to rent VCD.
After that we had our dinner.
I had Nasi Goreng for my dinner.
After our dinner we watched "The Bride" and "initial D"
Baby helped me to dye some of my hair.
LOL.
I also helped baby to dye her hair.
Soon we went to sleep.
SAT
We woke up at 9.50am and we watched "the perfect guy" and "love sms".
Supposed to meet the JA 1.30 at bedok platform but we were late.
hee.
We fed ourselves with the porridge quickly.
And soon we returned all the VCDs we rent and we went to prime supermarket to buy tibits and drinks.
And we took cab to bedok MRT station.
Met bubu, ross, zann and hui zhen in the train.
We headed to City Hall and walked to esplanade.
We went the roof top of esplande.
We took out the food we brought.
And it look like this:
(Our food look so messy!)
(Zann and Me fighting over food! LOL. JK.)
(Look at zann's face and the tibits she is holding. She won! All the foods belong to her. LOL)
Look at my bu gan yuan face, zann won all the food =(
(Hui zhen and wanna grab that pot home!!! LOL)
(The fight between two passives and two bungs. who do you think won the fight?
Of course the two passives won the fight. LOL)
Soon we decided to head to marina square for pools.
On our way there we went to cafe for a rest and we took pics of ourselves again.
(Can't see you that im kissing my sweetie pie? LOL. JK.)
(Hee. My silly baby and me)
After that we continue our way.
So we headed to marina square.
As soon as we reached Marina Square, I was making excuses that zann wanna buy gift for her gf.
So Zann accompanied me to the chocolate shop to buy chocolate for baby.
I hope my baby will like it.
To my surprise, Baby disappeared with bubu.
I thought they went to the loo.
Soon baby returned.
I saw baby hiding something behide her back.
Guess what is it?
Hee. It's a bouquet of sunflower.
(My very first christmas gift from baby!!!)
We exchanged our gifts. I gave the box of chocolate to baby.
I was like holding that bouquet of flower every hour. every mins and every seconds.
It was so beautiful.
We headed to k-pool soon.
After an hour of k-pooling, All of us went separate ways.
Baby and me headed to hawer near esplanade.
We had fried prawn noodles for dinner.
After our dinner we strolled along Singapore river.
(My baby was helping out with the statue)
Soon we took cab to 24 hours coffeeshop for our supper.
Met Ross there too.
Had pratas for our supper.
Soon went Baby house to stay overnight.
Sun
Woke up at one o'clock.
we slacked till 3 plus then went for our dinner.
we had nasi lemak for lunch.
Went home and we slacked again.
Guess what happened?
I make up for my baby.
LOL.
It was nice lah.
Hee.
Went off at 7 plus and headed to my grandparents house.
SIGHS.
Grandma told me that grandpa tumour is getting bigger and bigger.
And I saw it myself too.
I was sad but could not do anything.
I feel so stupid.
Grandma showed me her wedding photos with grandpa.
She must be thinking time flies.
And she is upset about grandpa illness.
I'm sad but couldn't help much.
I feel helplessly.
SIGHS.
Anyway,
Firstly I wanna thanks JA for the wonderful christmas eve.
I enjoyed it very much.
It was great.
Secondly, Thanks baby for the bouquet of sunflower.
U were saying that the sunflower refer to one and only one.
Don't worry I will take good care of it.
I will water it everyday.
I love it!
Lastly. I feel content to see grandma and grandpa today.
Ya, It's the best christmas gift.
let your heart out.
Today went baby's house for dinner.
We had reunion dinner with baby's mother.
I enjoyed my dinner.
I love the rice dumpling balls!!
It was nice. Yummy.
Yeah. Tomorrow can go my baby's house stay over.
Happiness.
No prata for us again okay?
I hate pratas! =P
LOL.
My baby is sick.
I'm worried for my baby =((
Hope that my silly baby is alright.
I wanna hug that silly baby.
I miss my baby so much =((
I Love You, Baby.
let your heart out.
okay what should i blog about?
Today went to meet hz and ben.
I was elated when i saw them.
Hee.
We walked all over.
Till my leg is aching now.
While we was walking along the street, we sing alots of songs.
It reminds me of our secondary school life.
We used to sing while we walked back home.
I miss that!
Although we looked silly but i still like the way we acted.
We walked from eunos to paya lebar and from paya lebar to marine parade.
Guess what happened while we passed by Joo chiat?
We saw a deserted house.
It was rather creepy inside.
LOL.
Hui zhen and me were so terrified and were as if running for life.
That mischievous ben scare me from my back.
And I was screaming like don't no what.
LOL.
Okay.. so we walked for almost an hour!!!
We looked so exhausted and dehyrated.
Guess what happened?
The clinic was closed.
Closed for lunch.
So we waited and waited and waited.
It was 1.45pm.
Ben and Hui zhen accompanied me for the waiting until 2pm.
Soon, they took cab and headed back to paya lebar.
And I sat there like an idiot waiting there alone.
Suddenly baby called me, baby told me that she want to accompany me.
How fortunate I am.
Hee.
So this silly baby of mine took cab to marine parade to accompany me.
Of course I was touched.
At least baby was there to accompany me when I am all alone.
I felt so blissed when i saw my baby.
Baby was holding meiji chocolate ( my favourite chocolate) and lolipops ( meant for hui zhen and Ben).
My baby was soooo sweet and caring.
Hee.
Baby said that chocolates help to ease the pain of stomach cramps.
=))
After that our stomach growled.
And we decided to eat japanese food.
The food was nice and it filled up our tummy.
We headed to bedok reservoir after our early dinner.
We went to look for Hui Zhen and Ben.
Actually we thought of going KCC.
But, Hui zhen need to go home early =((
My baby accompanied me to KCC.
We only sang for two hours =((
But I do enjoyed.
After that baby and me went to bedok central.
Guess what?
I bought myself a watch!
I love it!!!
I bought baby a watch as christmas gift.
I hope baby like it.
Soon, baby sent me home.
Okay firstly, I wanna thanks Hui Zhen and Ben for walking me to the clinic.
Secondly, I enjoyed with you guys, you guys made my day a wonderful and memorable one.
Lastly, Thanks baby for making you come all the way to marine parade to accompany me.
Thanks for your meiji chocolate and it' was great to talk to you so many of my personal thingy.
let your heart out.
Today went baby's house for dinner.
Dinner was fine.
After dinner we had some sweet moment together.
And soon after I took bus home.
Ya that's all.
let your heart out.
SIGHS!
Life Is So Boring And Meaningless.
Time Flies.
From A Child, I Turned To An Adult.
My Life Is So Plain And Meaningless.
I Feel Like Dying.
Sighs.
I Do Not Even Know What I Want.
Everything Is So Unfair.
I Should Have Plan For My Future.
Yet, Im Slacking Like Shit.
I'm Becoming A Useless Bum.
What To Do?
Sighs.
Even I'm Happy Today, Doesn't Mean That Tomorrow I Will Also Be Happy.
Ep. Last Fri Went Baby's House Stayed Over Night, After We Woke Is Alr Tomorrow.
How I Wish Time Could Stop There.
It's Such Impossible.
Anyway, I'm Stupid, Useless Bum.
Sighs.
I Hate My Life.
let your heart out.
Took when we are at queensway shopping centre.
Hmmm.. Today Went Kboxing With Baby.
We Had Fun There.
Sang Quite A Lot Of Songs.
After Our Kboxing Sessions, We Went Shopping At Tm.
It Was Boring There.
So We Decided To Go Queensway Shopping Centre As Baby Wanted To Buy Her Clothes.
We Took Train There.
On The Way There, We Chatted About Our Future.
We Actually Planned Our Future.
It Might Seem Far Away But I Believe If We Strive Hard For It, We Will Definately Achieve It.
I'm Not Sure If Baby Thinks The Same Too.
We Shopped For Baby's Clothes.
Baby Bought Quite Alot Of Stuffs There.
We Also Ate Quite Alot Of Junk Food.
Examples: Bubble tea, Hotdog Bread, Curry Puff, Fries...
I Hope Baby Enjoys Her Day With Me.
Tomorrow Gonna Work Maybe Next Time Don't Have Much Time To Meet My Baby.
Sighs.
I Will Miss My Baby.
Baby.. You Do Take Care Okay?
Must Remember To Eat Your Three Meals.
Don't Skip Your Meals.
I Definately Will Be Missing You Tons.
SIGHS!
I MISS YOU!
let your heart out.
Taken at tm.
Im Back To Blog.
Hee.
FRI
Went Tm With Baby.
We Walked Around At Tm.
Something Funny Happened.
Baby And Me Had The Urge To Buy Lottery!
Can You Imagine It?
LOL!
We Just Wanna Try Our Luck.
We Headed Home Soon After.
Went To Baby's House And Stayed Over Night =D
We Lighted The Candle With Aroma Lavender Scent.
It Was Nice.
At Around 2pm Baby And Me Had The Urge To Eat Prata.
So We Went Down To The 24Hours Coffeeshop And Buy Our Prata.
Today
Hmmm.. Just Reached Home.
My Baby Send Me Home =D
Happiness!
We Went Tm Again.
We Had Yoshi For Our Dinner.
I Had Bad Stomachache.
I Think That It's The Prata Fault.
I Hate Prata =(
Sobs!
Tomorrow Baby And Me Going Kboxing.
Happiness =D
I Miss My Silly Baby.
let your heart out.
How to hide my sadness
The place where I lost you
The fragrance of your hair scatters hastily
I already cannot catch up
With my eys closed, I can still see
The traces of your departure
I keep searching under the moonlight
For that silhouette that I’m thinking of
If breaking up can be said to be the starting point of pain
Then before the final destination point, I’m willing to love once again
I want to tell you, the love that I dare not express
Will anyone be able to understand
I will be staring off into space, then I will forget you
And then tightly close my eyes
Thinking about that day, when there will be someone who’ll take your place
So that I will not think about you anymore
I will be staring off into space, then I will break into a smile
And then tightly close my eyes Thinking once again, your tender face
Before I forget
The tears in my heart, have blurred my vision
You almost can’t see it anymore
let your heart out.
The world from the rear view mirror becomes further and further away as if saying goodbye. You turn around but your side profile is still very beautiful. I use my eyes to pursue you, yet I hear your tears. Outside the car window is my missed opportunity. Your position and mine is separated by tears. The street views are continuously receding, you start to fragment outside the window. I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you. You said you were already tired and cannot fall in love with anybody again. The wind is blowing on the mountain road, all of our previous memories were my wrongdoings .Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances. I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you. Around the steering wheel rotates my feelings of regret. I accelerate to escape the lingering sadness. Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances.Stop the anguish by letting my wrongdoings...
let your heart out.
I Dunno How To Explain How I Felt.
Sighs.
Mix Emotion.
Ya, You Have The Phobia Of Forever.
This Makes Me Too.
I Dunno.
Maybe You Don't Trust This Relationship.
Why Do People Have To Regret When Things Lost.
I Wonder How Far We Could Go.
I'm Totally Disappointed.
What You Want Me To Do?
I Already Told You That I'm Different From Others.
Anyways I Got Nothing To Say.
Go Ahead And Bellieve Those Curse.
Im Totally So Upset.
SIGHS.
When You Are Ready To Believe In Forever Then You Tell Me.
Tired.
let your heart out.
Today Went To Visit My Grandparents.
My Aunt Bought A Colour Phone For Grandpa.
I Took My Photos And Helped Grandpa To Set As Wallpaper.
I Told I'm Always In This Phone So That When He Misses Me He Can Looks At His Hp.
Grandma Told Me That Grandpa Is Now Undergoing Electron-Therapy.
She Told Me That Grandpa Feels Hurt During The Treatment.
And It's Like Every Week Grandpa Has To Undergo The Treatment.
I Know That Grandpa Feels Tired Of The Treatment.
SIGHS!
I Feel Hurt Deep Inside My Heart.
Grandpa No Matter What We Will Be There For You.
Grandma Also Told Me That Grandpa Is Worrying About My Cousins (The Four Kids)
SIGHS!
let your heart out.
I Miss My JA!
SIGHS!
I'm Listening To Canon In D And Missing Them.
I'm So Fortunate To Have Them.
I Hope We Won't Be Forgetting Each Other No Matter What.
I Feel Like Crying.
Although Sometimes We Do Have Misunderstanding But This Brought Us Closer.
I Feel So Contented When I'm With Them.
I'm So Touched When I Saw The JA Testi.
My Tears Rolled From Cheek.
I Wanna Be Like Last Time, Go Back To BDS And Study.
I Love Their Lame Jokes, I Know They Are Oways There For Me When I'm Down.
We Are Together For Almost 3 Years!
Wah~
Time Flew By Sooo Fast.
Sighs.
Can We Go Back To Last Time?
I Cherish You Guys No Matter.
I Love JA!!!!!!!!!!
let your heart out.
Today Baby Brought Me To Kcc To Relieve Stress.
Hmmm.. It's Was Fun.
We Had Duet Songs And It Was Nice.
Baby Bought Chocolates For Me!!!
Thanks Baby!
After KCC We Went To Meet Hui Zhen And Yee Ling.
I Was Glad To See Them.
Hees =))))
We Had Japanese Food For Dinner.
We Then Talk About Our Sweet Childhood Memories.
How Silly We Are.
LOL!
After Our Dinner We Walked Around At Bedok Central.
Soon, Hui Zhen And Yee Ling Went Home.
At Least I Get To See Them And It Do Brighten Up My Day.
Baby And Me Headed To Giant For Stuff.
And There Was This Weirdo Wrapping Her Veg Over Layers Of Plastic Bag.
The Cashier And Me Exchanged A Weird Look On That Weirdo.
How Mean I Was! LOL!
After That, Baby And Me Sat Down On A Corner And Chatted.
Hmmm.. Baby I Don't Need Expensive Gift For My Christmas Gift.
Simple Will Do.
Things That Come From Your Heart Is Enough To Satisfied Me Already.
Silly Baby.
I Hope To See The JA On Christmas Eve.
We Shall Organise BBQ On That Day And Exchange Present With One Another.
WEEEE!!!
I Can't Wait To See Them.
=((((
I Miss Them.
Hees.
Baby Tomorrow I Shall Be A Guai BAbyl And Visit My Grandparents Okay?
I Miss My Grandparents.
I Wanna Have Wrestling With You On Friday.
I Will Sure Win You =D
Bleah!
LOL!
Baby I Will Never Doubt Your Love And Trust For Me Again.
I Wanna Be Your Algae Ah Ma Forever.
Be My Algae Ah Gong Forever okay?
Even All Of Your Teeth Is Dropping, All Your Hair Turns Greyish Or Balding
And Worst Still.. Becoming Nusiance Old Man,
I Will Still Love You!
No Matter What I Will Still Love You!
Imu.
let your heart out.
Hatred Still Lies In My Mind.
It's All Favouritism!
Am I Your Child?
The Way U Treated Seem As If I'm Not Your Child.
Why Do you Have To Born Me Out In This World And Yet Not Taking Your Responsibility?
Anyways, All My Trust Had Dissolved Into Ash.
I'm So Disappointed!
I Can't Believe That You Intrued My Privacy.
It's All Gone.
Suddenly I Felt That No One Can Be Trusted .
Not Even People Close To Me.
It's Like An Arrow Stucked In My heart.
I Feel Disolated, Devasted And Broken-Hearted Now.
Early In The Morning Today, She Was Like a Mad Dog Barking By Herself.
She Stood Beside Me And Mumbled By Herself.
She Was In Total Maddness.
I Was So Furious, I'm Sleeping Yet She's Barking Me Like Mad.
I Mean Can't She Waits Until I Woke Up Then Barks At Me?
She Is Insane.
I Becoming One Like Her Soon.
SIGHS.
I Hate Being Here.
ARGHS!
No Privacy At All.
How I Wish... SIGHS!
I'm Like Ill-Treated By You.
If You Hated Me So Much, I Shall Not Leave The Burden To You.
Maybe You Despised Me For Not Being What You Want Me To Be.
If I Leave This House And You Feel Better, I Shall Leave.
Just Take It As I'm Not Your Child.
SIGHS!
I'm Tired Of Living This Kind Of Life.
It's So Meaningless And Plain..
Well, What To Do?
Just Let It Be.
Today, I Called Baby Early In The Morning.
Sorry Baby For Waking You Up.
Baby Brought Me To Mac For Hotcakes!!!
I Feel So Elated When I Saw The Silly Baby Of Mine.
After Our Breakfast We Toured Ard At Bedok Central.
I Miss That Silly Baby.
Wanna Hug Ya!
You Are So Naughty, U Kept Tempting Me To Go KCC.
LOL.
Addicted??
I Admit I'm Addicted okay?
LOL!
Thanks Baby That You Are There For Me.
U Brighten Up My Day.
I Miss you, And I Really Do.
You Are Mine Forever And I'm Yours Forever.
Give Me Your Hands And Never Doubt My Love For You!
One And Only You!
let your heart out.
Baby and me quarrelled in the afternoon.
Sorry baby.
Im glad im so honest.
At least feel much better.
=))
Went to zann's house today.
Sorry to trouble u, zann.
Thanks for your help.
My instinct was right.
It was so true.
Anyway, it had already happened.
So i can't do anything about it.
Trust is difficult to gain,
So guys do treasure whatever trust u have okay?
It's difficult for me to trust and to gain back all trust that had lost.
No matter it's my best friend or my close one,
I really do not wish them to lie to me.
I mean i do feel hurt and upset when i know the truth.
SIGHS.
When i know about the truth,
It's was kind of mix emotion.
I do not know how to explain it.
I was like totally break down, upset, worried, out of rage, upset and disappointed..
Hai.
But no matter thousands and thousands of sorry doesn't heal my wound.
I'm still upset though.
Depressed!
But.. I'm quite alright now.
I still can't forgive the incident.
I mean i should have stopped the incident from happening.
But it's too late.
Hui zhen, you are right.
I'm getting so honest now.
I just can't help to be frank right now.
Isn't it better?
Afterall, I been keeping this to myself for days and it doesn't feel good.
I'm feeling so GULITY!
But now.. I'm alright and everything is so fine and as usal now.
Janet, it's time for you to wake up.
Wake up.
This is not the life you want to live.
Yea.. I shall restart everything.
Baby..
I hope you will give full trust okay?
I know it takes time but i shall wait for that one day that u are wiling to give me your full trust.
Baby, do not doubt my love for you.
Trust my undying, everlasting and eternal love for you...
I love you till the end.
let your heart out.
Just reached home.
Tired. Tired. Tired.
Confused. Confused. Confused.
Sighs. Sighs. Sighs.
Today went to kcc with hz, ross and baby.
Hz and me went crazy today at kcc.
Lol.
So Memorable and fun.
Baby do you feel somehow neglected and insecure with me?
I know u do..
Sorry, if you feel neglected by me.
Sorry, if u insecure with me..
Sighs.
I don't know what to do now.
Totally break down.
Hai.
let your heart out.
Hee.
Tired.
Today meet my best budd.
I miss her alot! lol.
We crapped alot.
I miss those days when we are in school.
I miss JA!
I'm waiting for christmas to arrive..
Then i can meet my JA.
Yeah.
We can then exchange present.
=))
Friday going baby house to stay overnight.
Pratas for supper again?
Hees.
Happiness =))
Baby i love you more than words.
let your heart out.
Today meet fs, ice, ice's friends and baby.
Hee.
Went to pasir ris park with them.
We ate fried rice together.
I admit i was vain because instead of wearing my specs i wore my lenses.
hee.
So happy to see my long lost friend, fs.
Miss her so much!
hee.
=))
Today my baby made sushi for me.
My baby is sooooo sweet.
hee.
hugss!
Baby don't think so much okay?
I only love you, silly baby..
My love is reserved for you =)
let your heart out.
Sun
Had Sore eye.
Big, ugly and swollen eye. sobs.
Baby brought me to the doc.
Doc said that im having sore eye. sighs.
But.. hee.. Im happy that i get to see my baby.
heh.
We spent our first anniversary at the clinic. lol!
But it was a memorable one.
=))
Thanks baby!
After visiting to clinic we went to the coffeeshop for our dinner.
We ate fish and chips.
yummy.
Baby seeing you brighten up my day.
Thanks for being there for me =))
I love you more than i can say.. hee.
Today
Baby came my house.
hee.
smuggled baby to house. lol.
Luckily no one discovered it. Phew.
What a risk!
Baby bought duck meat rice, luo han guo tea, chocolate and ice milo.
All my favourite food! hee.
My baby is sooo sweet. Hugss.
After we had our lunch we stayed at my home for quite some time.
We heard knocking from the door and we were panic stricken!
Hee. It's was my dog shaking its body.
I tot it was someone knocking on the door. Phew!
Hee.
After that, We went to kcc.
heh.
Spent almost four hours there.
We sang quite along of songs.
My baby's voice melted me.
=))
I miss my baby!
let your heart out.
Hai.. it's another day now.
Alone by myself again.
I feeling depressed again.
My eye is still the same like yesterday.
I thought it will turned out be better, yet it did not.
Hai.
Fated to be like this, what to do?
No one knows what will happen tomorrow.
I am feeling so helplessly and lonely.
Sighs.
Im listening to the korean song; xiang jian ni.
hai.
I think the song suits me well.
I am still feeling very gulity.
You are like so guai and im like a bad girl.
I am really afraid those lies u made to your mum is not worth it.
I don't really feel good.
The problems all lies in me.
Nothing to do with you.
Love takes time.
Everything is like a rush.
I am still not use to it
forever alone.
let your heart out.
SIGHS!
I really don't know what is going on.
Hai.
Ya finally changed my blog song.
What a sad song, but i like it.
My right eye tense to be so blury.
I can't see things clearly.
Am i going to be like the female leading actress in the stairway to heaven show?
I dunno.
Hai.
Maybe i am going to be blind like her.
I am feelin so so down now.
No ones will understand how i feel not even ppl close to me.
I always hide things by myself.
Hai.
What should i do?
I feeling gulity?
I feel like crying for no reasons.
Can anybody help me?
I feel soooo stress.
but i am stressed for nothing.
I should be happy that today is our first month anniversary.
yet, i feel so plain about it.
I am still not use to it.
I need time to reflect on myself..
Lots and lots of time.
I going insane anytime i guess.
I apperciate everything, yes i do.
hai.
I feel so dumb and stupid..
But i just can't explain what makes me feel so.
Hai.
I am alone by myself.
No ones will understand.
I just can't stop my mind from thinking any further.
I feel so terrible..
hai.
Lots of things had to change because of me but still i think it is not worth it unless you are willingly to do so.
Everyday coming back to this empty house makes me feel so frighten..
Nobody to talk to.
No ones cares me.
Nobody shower their's love to me.
I feel all alone.
Whenever i walk down the street seeing couples or families happily chating and so close to one another.
I was so envious.
I want to be like them too.
But i guess this wil never happen to me.
I am not a good girl, you understand?
I am rebellious, go home late often, doesn't obey to parents and lots of stuffs. I am not that type of guai type of ger.
We shouldn't have come together.
We are like totally different backgrounds and personality.
I have tried my best to sort out what's matter with me, yet.. i still do not have an answer with me.
I seldom speaks to you about my families right?
U might guess i really had caring parents and siblings.
I am invisible to them.
When i needed help, my mum was like it's your own business u shall settle it yourself.
Maybe compared to my pervious ex she knows more than you do.
It's because i do take time to tell her everything.
And it's true.
Do you I am like living alone?
All alone.
That's why i said tht im independent enough.
Even my family is staying with me, i feel as if i am alone.
Only when i was still a child staying with grandmother makes me feel not getting neglected.
I hunger for love.
I do compared sometimes.
That is why sometime i mentioned that the person is much better in this way.
You have your every rights to be yourself.
Don't just change everything for me.
I am afraid being with me, you will only suffered.
Like what someone told me that you are so guai and if you continuing being with me i will definately feel that i brought you to worst.
I seldom have dinner with my family.
seldom? or should i say never?
I really feel sooo left out.
That's why i seldom stay alone at home.
Get what i mean?
I even had intention of moving out from this house.
When i am sick, i am all alone.
No ones will bring me to the doctor or feed me medicine.
Sometimes i feel that am i human and their flesh blood too?
I am not like you..
You have to be home by this and this time.
While mine? No limit.
Hai.
If you continue being me i will only teach you bad.
understand?
And you see as and when i wanna stay overnight and go home late, Nobody will cares about me.
U should be glad your mother really cares for you.
I feel so gulity.
I always had this big sweet dream..
But i know myself that it won't happen to me...
I always wished to have a caring family who never fails to ask my needs and cheer me up.
I always wished that my the other partner will care about me without fails (I did not mean that she does not care for me) In the sense that i hope my partner will do things out of willingly and sincerely.
Someone told me that you can't expect the person to be perfect and change totally for you and it's impossible.
They have their own negative points.
I admited i'm still not used to all the things i had now.
Will my life continued to be so meaningless?
I feel like nothing left now.
so depressed.
So many things clogged into my mind.
It's difficult to wash it all off.
hai..
This my life, what to do?
I shall accept it..
Just let fate decide.
It's all so unfair.
Sigh.
shall let my mind rest in peace.
I do not wish to care anymore.
Forever being alone by myself.
let your heart out.
FRI
Met baby at tm.
I was so late so took cab to meet baby.
Sorry baby.
And we went kboxing,
hee.
Sang alot of songs with baby.
My baby's voice melted me.
hee.
And after kboxing we went to bugis.
We went to pmk to look for her.
Miss her ar.
hee.
Ross and i accompanied baby for her hair cut.
We went shopping at bugis street.
I saw this skirt that is sooooo nice
but.. sighs.
They do not have my size.
ARHX!
lol.
Anyway we went to bencoolen to buy my favorite drink; Bubble tea!
Heh.
After that we went to orchard.
Went hereen and there's nothing much there.
Soon, We felt hungry and decided to have chicken rice for dinner.
So We decided walked to far east plaza and had chicken rice there.
It's was nice and yummy.
hee.
We was so exhausted and we decided to walk ard far east and go home after that.
Took bus 518 to baby's house.
Stayed overnight at baby's house.
hee.
That night was so blissful.
How i was time could just stop there.
sighs.
It such impossible.
We shared sweet monents together.
~imu~
SAT
Woke up at 11.30am.
Saw baby's sleeping so soundly and sweet.
Cute.
Baby and i made sushi together.
It turned out to be nice.
hee.
Thanks baby for your sushi and your effort.
I love it.
We went tm and took prints together for our first month anniversary.
I suddenly had an urge to meet my two bestie.
I miss them.
hee.
Went to ljs for our late dinner.
We walked ard at bedok cental and soon after we decided to walk to chai chee void deck to chit chat.
Ben and zann helped baby to style her hair.
It turned out to be sooo cool.
I feel so gulity.
Sorry baby.
Sighs.
You shouldn't have accompanied me.
I am really very sorry.
But i do cherish the things you have done for me.
thanks baby.
I apperciate the count down and everything you done.
Tomorrow is our anniversary and we won't be meeting each other.
Do take care..
I will be missing you.
tomorrow and monday we won't be meeting each other, i shall use this two days wisely.
And use this two days to miss you.
Happy one month anniversary.
Hope you enjoyed today's outing with me.
Looking forward for our next month anniversary.
i miss u so much!
sighs.
Love you forever!!!
let your heart out.