Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
I was actually shopping at bugis with baby and suddenly my hp rang.
It was mummy.
Mummy sounded in despair so I asked what happened.
She replied that grandmother fainted and was admitted to the hospital.
Sghs.
I was in despair too.
I broke down immediately.
Cried at the public loudly like nobody business.
My mind was in a confusion.
It's just a long long story.
Hah.
What shall I say?
I was like a abandon child when I was 6 months old.
Mother and father did not have the time to take care of me.
And so, out of sympathy grandmother and grandfather agreed to take care of me.
And it's not a few months or a few years, but it is 10 YEARS!
I don't know what is family love neither do i know how define it.
So when I was a child, my friend always questioned where is my parents.
They often mocked that I have no parents.
Feeling utterly upset and helplessly, I shouted to them that I have no parents and that my parents had already died.
How mean I was.
But, you guys will never understand the pain i had all along.
And this 10 years is a meaningful one.
I enjoyed the days spent with grandmother and grandfather.
They gave me all the love I needed.
The 10 years brought our bonds closer.
In the past, grandfather never fails to buy my favourite french fries and fish burger.
Yah, it was my favourite foods when I was in small kid.
Though I do not have the love from my parents like all the kids had, but one thing i'm proud is that I have my grandparents' love =)
They never fail to shower their love, though they never express it but I can still feel it =))
I moved to my parents house when I was secondary one.
I cried for the entire month and called grandmother almost everyday.
And I feel that i'm so odd in this house.
Sighs.
How I wish i can turn back to the time?
And I wanna turn back to the time where i can spend my days happily with my grandparents.
Grandfather was admitted to the hospital a few weeks ago, he had been discharged already.
He had a great fall and hurted his head badly.
And grandmother now is in the hospital.
I'm pretty worried for them.
Sighs.
I'm in an unstable mood right now.
And I hope that grandmother and grandfather will be fine.
I love them forever no matter what.
Thanks for the love and care given by you.
let your heart out.
Sigh... Baby.. I'm really sorry.
I know was rash and hot-headed just now..
I'm sorry.. pls forgive me baby?
You are worth my love.
You are worth everything on this entire universe.
Iloveyouforever.
And this strong love that i have for you will never ever end.
Love,
Daryl.
let your heart out.
Went shopping at cine last night.
Saw two cute voodoo dolls.
One is a female one with the wand and the another is a male one with a bow and arrow.
Both is angel with wings.
Bought one for baby and another one me.
I knew baby adores it =)
Stayed over at baby's house for a night.
Had arugment with baby last night.
The arugment was rather a funny one =)
Woke up rather late today.
And it was raining cats and dogs in the noon.
Actually we planned to have steamboat but the cat-and-dog weather ruined our plan.
So we stayed home for the entire afternoon and babbled with baby's mother.
She was in a high spirits mood =)
Went shopping at TM.
Had my toes painted at good earth nail bar and also bought a top from mango.
Dined at sakae sushi.
It was so appetizing.
Bus-ed home after that.
My silly baby accompanied me.
It was pretty late and baby was uneasy about my safety.
My baby is so thoughful =)
Silly baby cabbed home after that.
It's such a bliss that I have you as mine.
Threw away the flowers that baby had gave me.
Though I was feeling abit broken up, but mummy said that it might cause the breeding of mosquitos and therefore it is risk taking.
And so I have got no choice but to throw it.
Baby was feeling upset and angry at first, but we manged to sort it out in a easeful manner =))
Actually it's the thought that counts.
Baby, I groove on every gift that you had gave me =)
I have just discovered a wisdom tooth shooting up in the back of my gum.
Though it doesn't hurt, but I'm afraid that I would need to extract it.
And I've heard that some of the wisdom tooth needs operation.
I guess I need to have a checkup soon.
So moral of the story is to get your dental checkup every 6 months =))
let your heart out.
I had great day today!
Spent 70 bucks on shopping.
Bought two tops, a pants and a cute baby bear from precious thots for my baby.
Though baby was unhappy that I had overspent my money, on the other hand baby just loves the cute baby bear.
Had a chicago cheesecake from coffeebean, I simply just love it please?
It was damn hilarious larh.
Baby and me were like giggling away.
Monkey, gorilla, chimpanzee!!
I'm unable to sleep one night without you.
My mind is all stuffed by you.
I cotton to every jokes and little funny act that you have done.
It simply untighten all my stress.
I love to cover your blanket for you,
I love to hug you tightly to sleep,
I love to kiss your forehead gently,
I love to wipe your tiny leftover food in your mouth for you,
I love to see you acting cute infront of me,
I love to listen to your voice on the phone,
I love to drink honey dew milk tea with pearls with you,
I love to indulge in our favourite ice cream with you.
I love to see you brushing your teeth in a blur manner,
I love to look into your eye and tell you how much I love you,
I love to squeeze you till you can't breathe
I love to sniff the scent that you are wearing,
I love to see you acting blur infront of me,
I love to irritate you and give you that funny face,
I love to peek at you when you are sleeping,
I love to see you blushing when you have done something wrong,
I love it when you said orh la orh la",
I love it when you got jealous over something,
I love it when you asked me to keep quiet, but I ignored you and you gave me a kiss on lips to stop me from talking too much,
I love it when you said '' Baby, I love you!",
I love it when you picked me up from work,
I love ot when you said that I'm the only one in your heart,
I love everything about you!!!
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let your heart out.
Sighs.
What should i said?
I just wanna be alone.
Feel like crying in this lonesome night.
I guess nothing can make me feel better.
What do i really want?
I wish to forgo those ruffled things, but it just seems so backbreaking.
Well, my life is mess up right now?
Argh.
I just wanna get the fuck out of it.
Currently, i'm holding back my tears and those upside down.
Perhaps I shouldn't even think of it.
Life still have to go on no matter what.
But, I guess i'll be leading tedious life from now on.
let your heart out.
I'm currently missing my baby badly.
I hope work is fine for you.
No matter what, i'll be by your side always =)
Do not give up cos of any mishap alright?
I'm yearning for your hugs badly.
I love you baby.
let your heart out.
Had sweet stayed over at baby's house on wed.
Went lau pat sat and had our supper.
As usual i lead the way to lau pat sat.
So alighted from clarke quay and walked all our way to s'pore river then to lau pat sat.
Bought banana cum chocolate ice cream for my baby.
Indulged in our favourite ice cream, slurps.
Then headed our way to lau pat sat.
It tooks us an hour to reach there. (cos i guided the wrong way again!)
Hehs.
Had satay for our supper and it was nice =))
So we decided to cab home.
Yet, there wasn't any single cab!
Feeling frustrated and exhausted, I decided to walk further.
So i guided the way again.
From raffles place we walked to tanjong pagar!
It was so pathetic.
We flagged for cab for almost an hour!
Finally, we saw a cab!!!
So we hopped into the cab eagerly.
And soon, home sweet home.
Thanks baby for the sweet stayed over =))
Woke up with a nightmare this afternoon.
Sighs.
I was pretty worried though it was just only a dream.
Cried and hugged baby real tight after I woke up from the dream.
Cabbed to bugis after that.
Had shopping spree.
Baby bought a nice funky pants choosen by me.
While i bought two tops, two pairs lovely earrings and a funky ear studs for my baby.
Dined in bugis cafe.
Well, I just simply love eating brownies with my baby please?
Soon, we headed to the apple strudel shop.
Had our nice apple strudel together =)))
Actually we wanted to cab home.
But there wasn't any single cab.
So again from bugis we walked all our way to lavender.
It was damn creepy.
So we have got no choice and we bus-ed home.
Baby accompanied me home and cabbed home after that.
It was a nice shopping spree for the both of us =)))
Baby, i love you and i really really do.
let your heart out.
Today had a great time with hui zhen, ben, yee ling and baby at kcc.
It was damn hilarious.
Did lots of crazy things together.
Although it only a few hours, I really enjoyed myself very much.
It just reminds me of the days when we were in our sec 2.
I know I can only look back those days, it's just so impossible for us to meet up often again.
Everyone in the JAs is either working or studying and I guess it's rather difficult for us to have any spare time.
But i do know that we will certainly meet again, no worries =)
I had been busying with my work.
I have no time for all this things:
-my grandparents
-my primary school friends
-my family (although i dislike going out with them)
-my cousins ( i miss their giggling)
-my JAs
-myself (I need ample of deep restful sleep!)
I guess I had neglected all of the above things.
Sighs.
All my time is occupied by my work.
Anyway, I hope to see you guys soon.
Nothing can be amend to make things better.
I guess I gonna force myself to smile if i ever see you again.
It will never be the same again.
let your heart out.
Had shopping at town.
Baby bought me a pair of dazzling earrings.
I just love it to bits please?
Knocked around at hereen and saw this pair of stunning heels!
Guess what?
As I have already said that I'm a shopaholics so this is not a surprise.
Heh.
Not only that, i needed another pair of heels because the one I'm wearing was hurting me shoddily.
It caused much blister, ouch!
Anyway, I asked the person to expand the front part of the heels cos it was sort of tight.
But.. she expanded too much.
I just felt that I do not have any fate with heels =(
Dined at mos for our late dinner.
Baby fed me with the corn soup.
My baby is so so sweet ( You are my honey-coated baby !) =)))
Bus-ed home after that.
I just love every bus ride I had with you.
How I wish the bus ride will never end so that i can spend more time with you, lean on your warm and broad shoulders and arm in arm with you.
Someone actually cuddled me in public ar?
I love the tight hugs and the elongated kisses we had =)))
I love every dinner I had with you cos i'm able to wipe off those remaining small food particles for you.
I love the way you pamper and dote me cos i'm able to feel that you do care for me.
I love every beginning of the day cos you will be giving me morning calls without fails.
I love the way you put my hands in your tummy whenever i'm cold cos your tummy is oh so warm.
I love the way you smile and call me baby cos I feel that I'm precious to you.
Baby, you do played an important part in my life so don't ever leave me alright?
let your heart out.
Went to JB with my baby yesterday.
Had our hair trimed and bought quite lots of stuffs from there.
Baby bought two tops while I bought a top, a pants and a pair shoes.
I bought baby a leather wrist band and it looks perfectly nice on my baby's hand.
Shopped till 9 pm and we were both so hungry at that time.
Baby said that I'm a shopaholics.
Yah, I'm one indeed.
Taken at kinashi japanese restaurant.
Dined in at kinashi japanese restaurant.
Oh well, the foods there were delish.
Headed back to SG after our late dinner.
Went home to collect some of my stuffs and handed over a watch to mum as mother's day gift.
Mum was elated to see that, but on the other hand she nagged at me for spending such a holdup gift.
I could feel that she really adored it alot =)))
We then cabbed to baby's house after that.
Baby handed over the gift to her mother too.
And melancholy things happened.
It wasn't as easy as we think.
Sighs.
Anyway, i have phobia in it.
I just felt that i had been suspending in this situation.
I'm so dumbfounded to do anything else and definately I'm greatly affected by this matter.
Okay enough of all this blue funk.
Hmmm.. today was our 6 monthsary.
Went kboxing and shopping with baby.
Took prints with my silly baby.
Dined in at sakae.
Taken at sakae.
Heh.
We had japanese food for two days.
Roamed our way around and went home after that.
I'm missing my baby so much now.
i know we still have to be strong no matter what.
Like what you said, let us overcome every obstacles together instead the obstacles overcoming us.
i just wanna let you know you are greatly cherished by me.
Happy 6 monthsary baby!
This is specially delicated to my beloved mr liew.
We have come so far till we are now.
I'm willing to exchange anything for your love.
I'll climb the highest mountain and swim the deepest sea just for you.
Our story has unlimited pages with high and low climate.
Every part of the story consists of the obstancles we went through and the happy days we shared.
If I were to say that every pages are beautiful, i'm just lying because without obstacles we can never go so far.
Without either one of us, the story will be missing a page and it will not be as beautiful as it is.
My dearst prince charming, I'll be waiting the day for you to ride your horse to fetch me to our magnificent palace together.
Baby, this is specially written by me.
I hope you appreciate it.
Happy 6 monthsary my beloved mr liew.
I love you forever.
let your heart out.
Just came home not long ago.
Went town with my baby today.
Dined at bugis cafe.
Went shoppping after that.
We indulged in our heavenly apple strudel.
It was so luscious please?
Anyway, I appealed for leave tomorow.
Which means I do not have to attend work for two days! =))
I gonna spend this two days wisely.
SIGHS.
Many things happened today.
It was like a hard knocks for me.
Sometimes I just couldn't take it anymore.
What else can I do?
Another incident was that my brother dashed the hopes I had on him.
He seems to flee from reality and hides all the blues by himself.
He is not himself anymore.
I guess that daddy and mummy must be very upset.
He is such a letdown to us.
Anyway, I hope he will realise his mistakes and that we will still be there for him no matter.
My day was like so screwed up with mumbo jumbo stuffs.
Maybe I'm too gullible to believe that everything will turns out to be better.
I loathed the way I had to endure it.
It's been repeating again and again.
Now, i can only put everything aside first and see how it goes.
let your heart out.