Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters

Sunday
Mum barked ne up at 10 o'clock.
Bathed and changed into my new dress =)
Took almost an hour to prepare.
Mum, dad, bro and me took cab to marine parade to visit my grandma.
Bro and me were like stuffing ourselves with the tibits made by my auntie.
It was nice =)
Most of my cousins already married and has their own family.
One of my cousin daughter mistaken my dad as her grandpa.
Cos her grandpa is also my dad's twin brother.
LOL.
Dad and uncle were like making fun of her.
Dad told her: I'm your real grandpa, that one ( her real grandpa) is fake one."
Guess what?
She believed it!
And she was like get lost you fake gong gong..
We were all lauging away.
She was so cute.
Suddenly.. my uncle asked dad: "so when is your children going to marry and give birth?"
Give birth?
I'm afraid I won't.
But nobody knows..
After that we headed to simei..
Went to visit my grandparents.
Sighs.
Grandpa seems so weak.
He did not eat..
Played with the small kids.
All grown up already.
Sighs.
Sometimes.. I really don't know what I want in my life.
I'm not rich..
Has no education..
Lazy bum..
No skills..
No everything..
No stable income..
No stable job..

All my cousins seems so happy with their life.
Me?
Sighs.

After that went baby's house.
Baby's mother gave me hong bao =))
Baby ordered pizza hut and kfc.
Stayed over at baby's house.
We had our first new year together.

Today
Woke at 2 plus.
We slacked around, watched Vcd and wrestling with my baby.
My baby leg bleeded.
It was because my nails accidentally scratched baby's leg.
Sighs.
We had steamboat at baby's house for our dinner.
I feel as if my my tummy is going to burst.
I was like so full.
Soon.. baby sent me off.
I took cab home.

Ya.. Sighs.
My birthday is coming.
I'm celebrating my birthday on fri instead of sat.
Sighs.
Today hui zhen messaged me.
She said that maybe she can't make it.
Cos it happened to be her cousin birthday.
And her cousin is also opening chalet on that day.
Hui zhen said that she will try all her best to go.
She said that maybe after celebrating with me, she will then go celebrate with her cousins.
She asked what present I want for my birthday.
I told her as long as all the JA come for the chalet and be united forever.. it will be my best birthday gift.

Sighs.
U said that you already forget her..
Ya I know.
But.. sometimes action speaks louder than words.
Although you said that you already forgot her but u still cares how's her life going on right?
If not you wouldn't do that.
I can't believe that I'm always the last to know.
U said that u won't do it again but.. sighs.
You even apologize to me but.. my hurting woes won't recover soon.
Am I still the one you love?
What am I to you?
Why can't you still understand how I felt?
I looked so stupid.
My life is so plain.
Black and white.
I trust you, but.. again and again.. u hurted me.
I really don't know what to do.
If you don't really love me, just let me know.
I don't wanna be your substitute, stany-by and replacement.
Do you know because of you, i'm giving up my dream?
My job!
Again and again.
I wanna lead the life like what i want it to be.
I'm so tired already.
I'm being hurt so deeply.
You alway said that you have nothing hide behide me but.. sighs.
I don't wanna talk about it anymore.
Just let it be.
I'm upset.........

let your heart out.

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Kbox outing 02/09/06
Yee Ling and Hui zhen B'dae celebration 09/09/06
Cousins and me 10/09/06
East Coast & K Box Outing 23/09/06
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