Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
Again, I feeling depressed now.
I keep asking myself what I really want but I still do not have an answer with me.
What do I really need?
I'm so worn out.
Why can't I just settle down everything?
I just do not know what is wrong with me?
Sighs.
I wanna leave behind everything and do the things that I wanna do.
But, I'm stuck.
Sighs.
I'm so lost in my way.
What do I want?
Nobody understand what i really want.
Not even myself.
Maybe I'm a born loser?
I'm a loser in everything.
Nothing is ever smooth for me.
I guess there's is something else that hinder my path of career.
Or should I just put my worry aside?
I have been thinking quite alot.
I think I'm getting from bad to worst.
I just wanna give up my life so much so that I do not have to worry so much.
I guess it's not worth it.
I had done so much things just for you.
What have you done for me?
Did you ever spare a thought for me?
I'm sorry if I sounded harsh.
But.. it's from my bottom of my heart.
I just can't imagine how my life will be if it goes on like this.
One thing I have to admit is that I'm stuck on you.
Sighs.
Is that a good or a bad thing?
Maybe it's a good thing to you.
But.. it seems like a bad thing to me.
I have already decided that I wanna take a break in everything.
I'm so tired of my life.
After my short break, I'm going to strive hard for myself.
Sighs.
Finally, I have got the decision with me and I know what I really want now.
let your heart out.